Random Rant

So this post started out as a rant on a whole different subject, but I got sidetracked and started a completely new rant, and then deleted and deleted the former rant until all the old rant is gone.

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Part of the reason I travel is because learning how other people live is amazing. Even random interactions with people in other environments are amazing.

But also, I'm too confined by the social rules here. I need better examples of good friends. I need companionship from people with the same ethics, with no judgement, and who will earnestly listen when I talk. I need to be around people who enjoy helping others, and laughing out loud. The people I met in the DR just two years ago send me family photos and Skype calls, for God's sake.

I can't express myself freely here because I'm always judged. And I expect the head tilts and dismissive tones when I try now. Even still, I hesitantly attempted to explain my feelings about a recent incident to someone recently. And as expected, she mocked me and gave me the "well, THAT was stupid" response.

So.I no longer make excuses or ask for pardon for my feelings. But it makes me sad that I have such a large social network but no one who'll even get me.

I can be screaming in a crowd of a thousand people and no one will hear me.

But my friends from Brisbane, Australia... both people listened patiently and then explained back to me how I'm feeling. Neither did it as a method of pacification. Both actually finished my sentences.

They get me.